Do we usually get what we set out for?

I think somewhere our conscious knows if we will get what we want in the end. And, we usually end up going against our conscious because we don’t want to think negative all the time. It is true if you gain something then you might end up losing something along the way. Sometimes you know what it is and sometimes you don’t. I fear the unknown. One of the reasons, I don’t enjoy surprises is because I react like a lunatic when it happens. Or, I will react like a person suffering from vertigo is made to stand on the highest mountain alone. I might cry, yell, and feel dizzy and confused.  Weird! I have always been like this. I have tried but I cannot control my emotions when I feel something very strongly.

Coming back to the question, I am here doing my Masters in Biotechnology with enterprise. This course has a lot to offer. It has given me a hindsight view on how biotechnology can be commercialized by us researchers.  I have been studying for 20 years now but, still I feel that I am not done learning. I had fallen in a pit to find the bottom of the pit. However, I think I have fallen into a bottomless pit. Why do I not feel complete? Why do I think that I still have miles to go before I stop?

There are people my age or even less who think that they are done with the institution of education. Education is an ever-growing institution how can one be done with it. My mind aches for more knowledge. Nevertheless, it envies other minds who don’t want more. Sometimes, I feel even if I achieve the highest education one can, will I feel satisfied? Will I find my bottom of the pit?